I honestly think this is an inappropriate topic to post here, but last time I do, some people genuinely helped me, and that's coming from Sea of Thieves community that helped me back then

However, you know sometimes I just feel like I want to unload a lot of things, so I'm just gonna put it here for people to read. I feel so depressed and dead inside

Lately, I have been thinking of suicidal thoughts again, back then it happened once and Sea of Thieves Community helped me get back on my feet, but after a while, and facing what I am facing right now, I just feel that, it's not working at all.

Being fired, jobless, jumping between Freelancer and odd jobs here and there, drowning in massive debt that I know cannot be repaid anytime soon while having the collector breathing on my neck everyday, severe insomnia... I feel like, I want to take a long sleep and never wake up again

It's a weird post to see on a game about pirate, but I feel close to the community of Sea of Thieves, I just want to get that feeling back then when I can talk about these and let people support me anywhere they are

It's been a long post, but I am grateful to all your reply later. I do hope I can survive long enough to see what's RARE keeping for the future

-Arcnarx-