Hello fellow Pirates , before you start to read i want to give you a fair warning before you shoot my head off if you see me in the game or you write me to Hell in the replies....This is going to be too long to read. i am also not English and will write a humongous amount of spelling or grammer mistakes...You can and may hate me for it , but i did my duty in warning you ...For those few that remember me, no this will not be one of my toecurling stories of old, so the few good jokes in there won't be found in here...
"Now what is this all about then? " Well, ..., i'm not sure myself , in all honesty ( * Oh, Blimey, our dumb yokel is going to write himself in mental ruins again....Be careful ,old man , this Forum is not as forgiving as in the beginning...This time i warned you! - Waw, Sunshine, so considerate , i'm not used to see that in you...* Look, Captain Tearface , the last mental crash was a heavy one and i try to prevent a new one ..okay? - Hey , no problem, Sunshine, you don't hear me complaining * Fine...Keep it that way...crybaby). i was here , two years ago , two months after the Forum had started , there weren't many pirates , well, certainly not as many as today , and as a foreigner it wasn't impossible to follow everything...But more pirates came , and it became more time consuming to follow everything. As a foreigner ,i also have the disadvantage ( * That you're ugly? ehhehehehehe) that i read English , translate to Flemish , come up with an answer in Flemish and write it down in English...The same problem excists in speaking too , but later about talking.
The Forum grew , too big for me. The Magical , mental healing vibe through acceptance by many pirates from all over the world , became less powerful. After the release , this Forum got bombed into ruins by so many people that didn't understood the game , the game was presented as a service game that would develop through time while it stayed playable, so many didn't understood this and didn't had the patience...SOT, while standing next to it's Genius Creators, got pulled on a pyre and almost burned in it's core .
i am a "feeling" person.i may look old and angry because of an ugly face but a few words can bring me down like many of you wouldn't even realize...i know, very dangerous to tell on the internet , already a few hooks are becoming reserved for my scalp...i don't care...
But i saw so many people trying to turn the mood and try to reason with an angry mob, sometimes it worked but it failed many times too.
i have the greatest respect for all those people that were called " White Knights " and far worse, i tried to be one too ,in my own silly way. It was my mission to bring over all the feels that i had , and still , experienced in this game..i wanted that you all could feel them , From Rare fan to Rare hater ,all of you. But i forgot one thing, i'm human, faulthy by nature and more importantly ,i was a thirth class ( * Oi, arrogant piece of work , you are not even enough to play football along six year old kids , they would thrash you, dumbo) footballer playing in the Premier League...A trench soldier that fought a war he never liked fighting.i was still lucky somehow that my writings were not shot down like so many others experienced , but that feeling didn't help...i didn't like the " tension in the air " that still hangs over this Forum. It dampens my spirit , it has almost destroyed my adrenalitic feel while writing. The last topic that i wrote had also complaints in it. i was become infected with the mood of the Forum...i was liked by many in here , don't ask me why ( * Hey , don't look at me,yokel, i never understood why people would like you? Are they all blind and deaf or something?) but they started to put me on a pedestal , wich i hate the most.In the meantime the mood had become so sick that Friends of mine, who have the Heart on their tongue ,were baited into many verbal battles in order to defend or ask questions that were critical but fair.
They got banned permanently and that gave a gushing wound in my love for this Forum. It started to bleed out...And on a Saterday morning i saw a post of a pirate that didn't see any good in his life anymore, it could be a joke, a cry for help ,or a really tasteless joke but when the word suicide get's dropped ,then so many of us including me don't take chances. We tried to talk sense and gave multiple online helplines for people in mental need.But one person, who had been uncontested in his trolling nature had a goof on him, i could no longer stand aside and started to say what i thought about him. We had a little ,very short wordfight ,because i don' t waste time on such people that kick others in the teeth when they are lying knocked down, but ...the moderators didn't do anything...Not to me , not to him...Later when i came back from work , i saw the whole topic deleted, the troll had still all privileges , but a message of the unfortunate pirate was waiting for me, i don't say details , but he sought and found help...All was good...for him. Not for me, i had let it slip, i had become a nagger, complaining sour excuse for a pirate, the anger that had build up in the troll conversation had shed a lot of Light on me...
i erased my account...
Ten days did i do nothing, a few messages were send from people who cared , still completely in the Dark mood ,i couldn't write like usual...i have lost some Friends back then...
Whatever you do, try to keep your Darker mood to yourself, but mine was too big...But Love crawls where it can't go...i missed the Forum ,i missed my Friends ,i missed writing, i missed bringing a smile to a person ( * But , poor old georgie...they were all laughing and happy ...because you left...Didn't you see? Dumbo?). So i saw my Friends , still writing , unrelentlesly bringing Light into Darkness, they were strong, i was weak.i have always looked up to them, the Forum Legends i mean, Mrs Truewalker , Mrs Lizalaroo, Miss Captn Jaq, Mr Musicmee, Mr Jay4dio, Master Dilly , sorry man, your gamertag is forbidden by a way too strong cencorating machine, Mr Tartansnake, and Mrs Stacky A to name a few ...
i was going to restart small and stay small...i can't read the whole Forum, i cant' help you all to understand the game by my limited amount of English words i contain.i have to stop dreaming about flying while i don't have any wings.i went back to the beginning, a small humble pirate with no expectations. Oh, this topic is not made to become embraced by all of you because since i ran away and let you all fight the Good cause on yer own, i have no right to have any Friends. Still i have many of you as my Friends, even after my runaway...A valuable, almost priceless lesson that took a while before i saw and understood that lesson...
i don't care about the rep i lost , i do care about my Spirit i had lost , my happy feeling that grinded to a halt because of reading to much negativity...
Months went by, i played solely with Friends or on my own, in a sloop. i read two or three topics and then i quited as my mental form could not read more...i only took small peeks to this Forum because my poisoned mind ,that was on the healing could become sick very easy again...
But once again, Love crawls where it can't run...Last week i played with Mr Dreifois. A perfect example of a Non English/ USA/ Australian and so on, pirate. He is Italian, speaks fluid French too and is perfectly understandable in English if you accept his accent...Accent , dirty word, i have and will always transfer that word as Colour of the Voice in my mind. And he possesses a very beautiful Colour, he too pours his Heartscontent on his tongue. He talks in the way that he is...We are both average pirates , you won't hear us brag about the Fleet of ships we have sunked , about the massacre we have dealt into the pirate ranks, totally none of that.We lost so many ships and melee fights that our name must be somewhere mentioned in the Guiness Book of records as the Most Lousy Pirates Ever. We are down to Earth and in all honesty, we talk more than we play focussedly. We sometimes sail by an island where we need to be without knowing because we talk so much.
Mr Dreifois got the Talent to be a fully passionate Storyteller, he puts himself short because of his accent , but he can entertain like nobody else , he is...just like all of us, unique in his way...You love him or...you hate him. He told me he had a lot of haters towards him and although i believe him , i still wonder why you would hate a person while playing a game...Don't worry, i will never find that answer as every person is unique, in also the less friendly behaviour...
Our conversation, however , triggered something in me. We are both foreign towards thy wonderful English language and although we do both our stinking best, nomatter what we try , we will always sound foreign because of our accent. For many pirates ,this is no concern, they take us on the journey nomatter what we are or where we hail from...For others we are the red cloth that wakes up a bull...So be it, we leave ,start again and hopefully find understanding people in wich this game is rich in...
But he told me two things that stung my Heart...We all have heard the prejudice that French, Italian, Spanish speaking, German,Russian, and so on and on like to talk only to the people that share the same language or same country with them. i too, thought that, since English is a Germanic Language and French, Spanish and Italian are Romanic Languages wich is a very steep slope if you want to go from Romanic language towards germanic language. so i too thought that that was the reason why so many , above named languages , were playing together...
But Mr Dreifois , and for that alone , he should get a statue , made me something very clear. All those people aren't shallow or arrogant as we, wrongly, call them...They have ...fear. Fear to talk their few words of English and be laughed upon...Fear to be called names of things you don't even find in the gutter...It is time that we all learn that other languages are an enrichment!...i play with a Russian Friend, Mr SovietUnion207, who only talks through the Non Verbal Communication wheel and the Xbox Live message service but we have found a way to have fun...i know 5 Russian words and those were enough to close a massive wide river between us. We don't care what Europe thinks about Russia , nor does he care what Russia thinks of Europe. We are both human, breath in the same air and when cut upon we bleed the same colour, Red.We ARE PIRATES, gamers that just like the game with whoever they come across...An Old, Legendary saying , of an even Legendary Pirate ,called Marek1408 comes back into my mind..." At the Sea of Thieves ,there are no nationalities, because we are all part of one nation, ONE, the Xbox nation...". Okay , see this a bit wider , since back then , the Alpha was only open for Xbox and not yet for PC...He would never exclude a person ,because he know how much it hurted to become excluded since he has Polish Origins...
Please think of that line when you next time come across a person that speaks his native language , throw a few words you know , and you will see that this person will try to throw a few English words back at you...
Your Friendship may start slow and sluggish but when both sides can wipe away the prejudices then you will see and feel that your inner self had become enriched...After all, you are playing a game and not living together...Give eachother a chance to grow out of your shell , reach out that verbal hand towards those " that only speaks their own language and refuse to talk something different", give them a chance and learn a few things and words from them too and you will see how Rich this Sea actually is....
Please...Do NOT commend yet, since i have to write this in two seperate topics , i know it's way too long , but i never forced you to read my misspelled attempts of writing...
